Rain rain rain...

Yay it's raining. A lot of people hate it because of so many adversities it brings. But what would a light rain do? A surge of mixed emotions fills me specially when I'm alone when it rains dramatically. It makes me want to do a lot of things..

have a hot cup of coffee
make pancakes
listen to slow music
write my journal
write poem
lie in bed all day
day dream dream dream
reminisce... ahh why do good things in the past have to be associated with rain...

but most of all... I want to...

It’s raining real hard, I just got enrolled. I only have 3 subjects – Computer 2, Arts Appreciation (again), and Nihonggo, YAY! Anyways, now that I’m not so busy, my mind is in chaos again… things will get complicated from now on… I have to expect for the worst to come… it’s something that I hate to imagine… What will I do? I’m just alone in this battle. No one can really help me now…. God… just what do you intend to do with this pathetic fool… mushrooming problem, one after another… I’m not that strong… all this time, I’ve been keeping up a strong front… a happy face… but it’s just because no one would understand… damn… I shouldn’t be getting emotional at times like this… I should remember that I have always got through different crisis before… this is no time to be thinking of giving up… but still, I don’t know… because anything that involves my family is just too much to take.

By the way, I slept at past 5AM today, reading yaoi mangas given by Sakuma, damn, it’s so overwhelming, but at the same time, blood-pumping hehehe… I also watched Kimi Ga Nozomu Eien (all 14 eps) and read Death Note (I’m already chapter 61). And Monching’s wife Wilma got back from Japan. She gave me a G Gundam 1/144 Model kit as omiyage… and Cyrus was just so hyperactive last night bragging all the Gundam kits that his mom bought for him… but he’ll be back in Cavite when his classes start, (probably today) and I’m really gonna miss him… indeed it was a long night for night for me last night….

And yeah, today is a very special day… someone so dear just turned a year older… this pathetic fool has not run out of hope… that one miraculous day would come, that you’ll understand how I feel… it doesn’t matter if you consider me a bad part of your past… but you’ll always be special to me… no matter what… I will never blame you for all this pain… I will never resent you. My words may never reach you… but someday… someday… surely… anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY –muahhugs-

waah! it's Mother's Day! Happy Mother's Day to all the wonderful moms in the world... To the mothers of my friends, for bringing into this world those kids who're fated to rock my world hehehe... To the mothers of my idols (CLAMP, Hayao Miyazaki, L`Arc~en~ciel, Yoshihiro Togashi, etc.) for bringing those geniuses, fated to spice up my life hehehe... to the mom of ****** for bringing into this world, the child who made me SMILE (again) hehe (then cry again -sigh-)... and of course... the BEST mom in the world, my ever dearest MOMONJI hehehe... I love you mom (",x)

hmmm, Toy Con is fast approaching, and I'm dying to join the Cosplay, but I'm not inspired by any character for the moment... ahhh... minna-san, help me think...

Today is also the birthday of my most generous auntie -Ate Mameng.... Happy Birthday! She asked us (my family) to come over at her home for a little celebration, but it's as if I'm cursed with idleness today... I'm not in the mood to go out, I even ditched the mass... i'm such a ba d kid... and here i am, waiting for food from the birthday celebration. Awww, i'm starving... Mom, hurry up! (",x)

Narcissistic mode on!!! Oh well, it's been a while since i uploaded pics! These are very fresh hehehe... and to date, i have 1588 pics in my Flash drive! Alright!

My boss requested me to drop by at the office because they’ll buy a pizza… so I borrowed Sherry’s Palm card… and good news, my missing earring was actually in her house, it seems I dropped it from my pouch when I went there a couple of weeks ago. Whew, thank goodness, I didn’t know how to explain to my mom… Anyways, today is a special day for me… I realized yesterday, when I was browsing old pictures, that significant events happen on the 3rd of April, well, at least for the past 3 years… Just to share:

April 3, 2003 – was the last time that Sherry, Sri and I watched anime together, it was a 2-day anime marathon actually, at Sri’s place… we watched Spiral, Chobits, Marmalade Boy, Pretear, Steel Angel Kurumi and Kare-kano…I felt mixed joy and sadness… joy because, well need I say more? We were watching anime and we had so many foods… chips and ice cream >.<

April 3, 2004 – Animax Carnival! The first anicon organized by Animax. And it was the very first time I saw Atom or Astroboy live! I was really happy of course. I was even able to shook hands with him TWICE!!! I had a picture with him too… and I also saw Koji Sawaii, the anime director of ‘//hack.legend of the twilight’…

April 3, 2005 – K** D****D K** hehehe, am I rising my reader’s curiosity? But this is the saddest of all… well, I’ve already talked about this a year ago (in my OFF-LINE journal)… it's been a year, but the pain is still here… *sigh*

And of course it's Nagi's birthday. Happy B-day Midii-kun!!! ===> okay, this is a repost, i did write it here, but i don't know why it was deleted... Hmmm weird... Nagi, i really wrote this part, as is... nways... I'm glad to know nababasa mo pala blog ko haha..

So far, nothing significant happens yet… if there is, I hope it’d be good… Right now I’m starving… can’t wait for that mozzarella stuffed pizza >.<

I just want to share, it’s been a year since I had my ear pierced… I remember it so clearly… it was Easter Sunday…okay I don’t want to get sentimental now so I won’t go into details anymore…

I just finished the anime Beck… hmmm, not bad but nothing remarkable either… I liked the opening song… maybe if I’m someone who’s an AVID fan of rock bands…

Speaking of bands… I didn’t come home again this weekend… I’m cost cutting… being based in the province is quite expensive if you’re working in Metro Manila… I’m talking of transpo expenses. Anyways, last Saturday Fars invited me to go the Winston Wings Tour 2006 in Malate. They featured Bamboo, Parokya ni Edgar and Sugarfree. Its free… so I thought… why not… it’s not everyday that you’d see a free live performance of the country’s top bands. I am not a fan of local bands, as I have mentioned long before (I think) I only liked E-heads. But I do like some local band songs (random). Besides, I’ve always wanted to see a live performance of Parokya ni Edgar. I’ve always heard that they are really makulet. Well, I could tell just listening to their songs. So how was the concert? Well, one thing I’ve learned, if it says in the marketing collaterals and news plugging that the program would start at 7:00, it would actually start at 9:00 so don’t bother to come on time or earlier. Darn, Fars, Mike and I waited for more than 2 hours! Neil was lucky enough that he came around 9pm, he was still able to get some sleep. I just hope it’s not the case with major concerts, especially that of foreign performers. About the performers, I couldn’t say much about Sugarfree, I was actually bored with them… I think out of the 3, they were the band that sang the most numbers, or am I just that bored. I did like one of their song, I just don’t know the title, it says something –magpapaalam na ako sa aking kwarto…- then came Parokya ni Edgar, hahaha, I really had fun seeing them… they were really makulet. What’s really wonderful about them is that they keep on promoting fellow rock bands –kamikazee, sugarfree, bamboo, hale- etc. Chito (vocals) was even wearing a “maharot” shirt of kamikaze… I liked it! But I’m not a fan of their music, I only loved “halaga”. Their songs are good to hear for stimulation, I swear I’d always laugh hearing their songs… but nothing beyond that, it’s not something I’d want to hear for any season or mood. But I was so excited when they sang “Narda” (by Kamikazee), though they didn’t finish it, tsk, tsk… I’m really hooked to that song hehehe… Bamboo… uhmm, well their music is powerful, they have this distinctive style in music… but I couldn’t really appreciate it. But seeing Bamboo rock like that makes me want to jump and head bang… rock on yeah! Well I did like some of his songs during Rivermaya era (Awit ng Kabataan & 214). And Bamboo is really an eye candy, no wonder Fars is soooo addicted hehehe… Well, another thing I realized is that I’ll never situate near the speaker, or the front row. I love loud rock music, but I do not want to impair my hearing. Really, after the gig, my ears felt numb. I swear, I’m reserving to hear music THAT loud for L`Arc~en~ciel… hmmm, I wish when I get to Japan, they’re still active…

It’s Narda on my music player right now… I really like this phrase -awit na nanawagan, baka sakali napakikinggan, pag-ibig na palaisipan, sa kanta na lang idadaan. Nag-aabang sa langit, sa mga ulap sumisilip, sa likod ng mga tala, kahit sulyap lang Darna- haay…

Anyways, yesterday, it was a good thing I browsed my planner. I have forgotten that Eiga Sai was showing in CCP stated last Saturday. Too bad I missed it… oh well, I got to see a concert… and I was able to watch 2 movies yesterday anyway. Yay! back to J-culture! I stayed at Starbucks Vito Cruz while waiting, I know, I’m supposed to cut my expenses, but I’d die of heat stroke if I stayed at the boarding house for more than an hour. And I actually have 2 e-fans on huh, it doesn’t make any difference. Besides, my destination is CCP, it’ll be good, I’d be able to walk –exercise-…


The first film was entitled ‘A Summer Page’. It’s a story about 3 boys who set out on a mountain climbing one summer day to fulfill a promise with their sensei who died a year ago. Japanese kids are the cutest I swear hehehe… I just love the sight of young boys in super-short shorts -nosebleeds- hehehe… basically the story tackles puberty, friendship and courage… nothing new actually but I just have this soft spot on childhood friendships. I have a lot of things missed during childhood, and having friends is just one of it. I do have playmates –neighbors- but friends are different… being a loner that I am, I never really experienced hanging out with friends when I was a kid. Letters, I think is very common that time. I remember reading Sherry’s friend letters during her gradeschool and highschool days… and I really can’t help feeling envious, because I never had those kinds of letters… I laughed at every message her friends and classmates told to her… they are nothing but silliness and innocence in deed… but they are memories… and I know that I was once as silly and innocent as them. Don’t get me wrong, I had a happy childhood I swear, but it’s just that I had no social life… well I did have letters during highschool, but they came from my siblings and relatives hehehe…While waiting for the next I roamed around CCP. I just love that place. A very suitable place for drifting from reality, just seeing the artworks on display in the halls makes me feel proud of Filipinos’ talent… There wss an ongoing ballet performance at one of the theaters… I saw some child ballet dancers… cute… but I didn’t watch, there was an entrance fee so…

The next film was “Young Girls in Love”, this time girls huh. The title says it all though, a story of 4 girls in love. I want to talk more about it but I don’t have the time now, I’m on a hurry right now…

Oh well, gotta go.

-awit na nanawagan, baka sakali napakikinggan, pag-ibig na palaisipan, sa kanta na lang idadaan. Nag-aabang sa langit, sa mga ulap sumisilip, sa likod ng mga tala, kahit sulyap lang Darna-

MARCH 19 is Kid's Stripes Day

Okay, it's March 20 already... but yesterday, after transferring some newly taken pics from Sherry's mobile phone into my computer, i browsed all my solo pics -narcissistic mode- i saw a pic of mine taken on the same day last year... and what a coincident, i was wearing a stipe-designed shirt too! And with that, i declare that every March 19, i should wear stripes! Yeah!

But, I just want to share, that the first pic was taken last year and is a rare find... why, i wonder if anyone would notice that for real, i was smiling... for some reason, i was really happy at that time... March 19, 2005... the second one.. well never mind... i'm a bit happy na rin

It’s the end of the month alright. So far, nothing special happened… except I lost my cellphone… I tried contacting Killua-chan… I got an indirect reply (probably)… the first time I’ve seen a live performance of a J-pop band… so far… no improvement. Anyway, Richard Paras, or Chichiri (as Sherry, Sri and I fondly call him) treated me to Starbucks today. He’s a school/batch mate and a fellow Metrobank Scholar. It’s his last day in MDH. He’ll be leaving for Singapore on March 11. He’s a registered nurse, but he took fashion design studies while working. It’s his real passion. Now he’s off to Singapore for further studies. I kinda envy him. He’s following his heart’s desire. Well I am, in a way, slowly taking the path of my dreams, but I’m slowly loosing motivation… so many factors involved… Haay, I’m sick. It’s this stupid runny nose again…

When it’s my lucky night, I dream of you… I’m sticking on this lucky charm thingie that I’ve seen in Hatsukoi… I even matched it with my shirt…

I got up so early. Jona asked me to bring her urine sample to the laboratory. *sigh* you just can’t say no to your pregnant cousin… I wanted to sleep more…

anyways, I’ve been craving for KFC’s mashed potato since Sunday! Where have all the mashed potatoes gone?! The third time I tried yesterday at Robinson’s Place, it’s still not available… also, I’m craving for Pizza Hut… I don’t care about the toppings! I just want the mozzarella stuffed edge of pizza! Yeah, I want it so badly, I’m already being tempted to use my card hehehe…

I’ve been reading the Hunter X Hunter manga, I’m already at chapter 55. It was the part that Gon and Killua are having their first Nen training at the Celestial Tower, under the care of Wing-sensei. And I’m enjoying it as much as I enjoyed the anime. So far, I haven’t spotted any difference yet, story wise. Well, I must’ve forgotten some details in anime.. I can’t wait to get to the Greed Island part… what makes it more interesting is the Mangaka notes! Yay! Now every Togashi fan knows that he is married to Naoko Takeuchi, the mangaka of Sailormoon (what a couple huh!). There were some parts that Togashi-sama would mention about Takeuchi-san, and I really find it interesting. Anyway, during the first popularity survey of HXH, guess who got the 1st place? Yep, no other than my dearest Killua-chan! Yay!!! With more than votes! The next was Kurapica followed by Gon, then Hisoka.

Updates, updates!

Okay, this is a late news already, but this is my blog so I just have to mention, I lost my phone last Feb. 16 (Thursday)… *sigh* I have been remarked stupid by my family, friends and colleagues already… yeah yeah, I admit… how stupid of me… left it at the cab… so stupid of me not to check… but anyway, it may take a long time before I get a new one. I have still so many bills to pay (credit cards)… and even if I got the cash, it’s not in my priority list… besides, I’m starting to get used to it already. Soshite… the only person I wanted to text has forgotten my existence anyway… I can still contact my friends thru landline or email anyway… so it’s not necessary to get one for now. Damn, I don’t give a shit about the unit, it’s a low-end phone anyway. What made me really feel bad is that I lost the SIM card… Huhuhu, it was the first and only SIM I had… ah I had a Sun Cellular given by a friend, it got lost too… but this Globe SIM… is really important to me… I had it since I was in 3rd year college…

Anyways, on other updates, a while ago, Gel came in the office for formal endorsement. It’s been a month since she went AWOL. Haha, you bet we missed her a lot. She had been my partner when it comes to making office more alive. Maybe one of the reasons that the work has become more boring and monotonous is because people who have contributed to the laughter in the office are leaving one by one… I should start to look somewhere to go too… this place is not worth staying.

I bought colorful band aids, Mediplast, I saw in the movie “Hatsukoi” that it’s a lucky charm if you put it in your ring finger. I bought 20 strips and I’m putting one till I ran out of stock, with a wish that… it’s just on me…

By the way, today was the start of the Document Awareness Training in MDH. We’re conducting this training every Wednesday, and we are 12 Systems Trainer to conduct the training. But my schedule is still months away, I just helped Ma’am Len, our lead trainer with the logistics.

Yesterday, our class went to UP Diliman, and watched a dance performance by the UP Filipiniana Dance Group. The name suggested already that most of the performance they did were ethnic and folk dances. However, in the later part, they did a series of interpretative dance to the tune of contemporary music. As I could remember, the songs were “No Matter What” by Boyzone, “Iris” (Googoo Dolls), “Hands To Heaven” (Breathless) and “I’ll Be” (Edwin McCain)… anyway, what made these numbers interesting is it was actually a tribute to the members of the 3rd sex. Haha, two men dancing together as partners is just freaking exciting! *yaoi mode* Anyway, after the performance, I went straight to Shangri-La, I was suppose to watch Eiga Sai but when I saw that the 8pm film is Hatsu Koi, I backed out. Why risk myself going home late over something I’ve seen already? I loved the film actually and I woudn’t mind seeing it again if only it was a little earlier. Anyway, my trip there wasn’t put to waste as there is an ongoing J-pop exhibit and Japan photography at 4th and 3rd floors respectively. Then I hanged out a little at the veranda in 6th floor. I just love hanging out there alone…

KiD at 23...

Okay, it was my 23rd birthday yesterday! In the end my wish didn’t come true. I just wanted a greeting from… Guess I’m totally forgotten huh… Anyway, as I have told Mike last night, I’m still not happy but this is a lot better than last year. He came, and brought us 2 Yellow Cab pizza… thanks to him, I had a birthday celebration. Lee and Nagi came too. We went to Starbucks after my duty. I treated them this time using my credit card *sigh* as much as I want to avoid using it… anyways, we had a chit chat till 11:30 PM I think… Mike gave me bunch of stuffs. This man really wants to make me smile (“,x). He gave me a Totoro stuff toy, 9x12 Canson Sketchpad, “Black Lotus” by Laura Joh Rowland, a sketch of me (again hehehe) inspired from the Animax marathon, and a mini CD wherein he put his dedication in Flash format. Cool huh. Sometimes I feel bad that I can never return the favor he’s doing for me... I told him a million times already. But he has become one of my FEW trusted friends… anyway, I’d like to thank also these people who greeted me yesterday (thru text): Ivy, Richard, Kara, Argiel, Colleen, Cheska, May, Aish, Nagi, Lee, Jeff, Butchoy, Mariel, Sri, Lynn, Rose, Ma’am She, Jason, Mike Fajardo, Mike Felix (sheez, too many Mike!), Sherry, Doraemon, and Glaiza.… and of course people at the office. Nagi gave me an Astroboy stationery, sweet huh (“,x)

Office news! Ma’am Glenda is leaving MDH. She’ll be here until this Friday only. So saddening huh? Everyone’s leaving. Also, Mabel’s last day was last Sunday (Feb. 5). She’s leaving for Kuwait… so that leaves 11 Docs Team members. Huhuhu… I’m gonna miss them… So much for bad news, Have I mentioned that I passed the IQA Training last week? Just before I went to the Animax 24-hr Anime Marathon challenge, passers were announced! To my surprise, I even ranked third! Way to go huh? I audited, together with our Chief Security Officer, Mr. Bong Ramos, 7F (yesterday) and 8F (today) Nurse Stations. Hohum, maybe it’s not for me, I find it boring to study their systems… but I’ve been inquisitive I believe, but some Nursing Practice issues are still vague to me. Tomorrow we’ll be auditing Wing C station *sigh*…

More good news (really?) Miyazaki’s “Howl’s Moving Castle” is again nominated at Oscars for Best Animated Feature! Yay! It’ll be competing with Tim Burton’s “Corpse Bride” and “Wallace & Gromit in the Curse of Were Rabbit”. I haven’t seen the two competitors, but I’m very confident that Howl’s has a good chance of winning. Wanna bet? Hehehe… Gosh, I’m hearing “4 Seasons of Loneliness” again. Valentines day is coming and I’m still… haay.. next topic pls. I’ve finally seen FMA movie and I was surprised and glad to know that L`Arc~en~ciel songs were used as opening and ending theme! By the way, I watched it the next day after the 24-hour marathon! Now I know that I can actually watch anime 24 hours straight and watch more the next day! That makes me a certified anime addict huh. The movie was good really, I’m not mentioning the details, I don’t want to be a spoiler, but I highly recommend it!

Anyway, check those screen caps of my birthday celebration. I forced them (officemates and friends) to sing me happy birthday hehehe. Just so I could blow a candle and make a wish hehehe... but my wish didn't come true ='(

Hey it's February! Valentine's Day is nearly coming... and i'm still... single hehehe... for that reason, i have never felt the speciality of that day in my whole damn life hahaha. Anyways, if i'll have okane I'll buy my male friends chocolates. I've been planning to do this for more than two years already because it is the practice in Japan... I hope i could push through with it this year...

I'm having IQA training from Monday til this coming Friday. Whoopee! Something to add to my resume hehehe... Tomorrow will be our exam and i'm crossing my fingers that i'd pass. I hope to join our incoming 2nd Internal Quality Audit. But i don't think i'll have the time to review, I feel so sleepy. I had this insomia attacks again, last Monday and Yesterday. I barely have 2 hours of sleep and no it's not because of my laptop. Blame it on Starbucks' white choco mocha hehehe...anyways, this insomia attack inspired me to write a poem... something very timely since valentine's day is 13 days ahead... I just want to share... Read on...


The Poltergeist3:56 AM

Sleepless nights
Eerie silence
Cold breeze
Restless thoughts…

Your smile
Your smell
Your voice
Your tears
Your call
Your touch
Your hug
Your kiss…

Haunts me
Hurts me
Devours me
Kills me

I wish the poltergeist would read this...

A Look at the Year 2005

One and a half hour to go and it’s the end of the year. The moment I’m doing this my nephew is watching the special yearend report of ABS-CBN. I just got home. I slept at my cousin’s house in Marikina. Also, while doing this, random BANG and BOOMS irritate my ear. Why, I really shouldn’t be irritated as it is a normal thing that happens in a year. While waiting for the opening of the year 2006, I’m pondering on the things that happened to me this year. As NASA quoted 2005 as the stormiest year for the past Nth year (I can’t remember), this year for me was probably was the most number significant events. The year where most unexpected occurrences took place. My busiest year ever (to date). Most productive and most spendthrift (for me)…well let’s have a wrap up…

Starting with work/career related issues. I got transferred from the President’s office as an Executive Assistant to Human Resource Division as an HR Staff for Recruitment. Admittedly, some perks as an Executive Assistant were gone, I lost a favorable charm from some members of the Senior Management, but I never regret my decision to transfer. It was only then that I felt having a purpose in the organization. I was able to recruit a batch of Staff Nurses and some of the position lacking. It was a really good performance for someone new in that field. But this year was also I decided to pursue Fine Arts studies. When I finally got the opportunity, I realized that I had to give up my position in HRD. It was really hard for me because for a very short time, I have learned to love my job, something I never did at the President’s Office for more than a year of my stay. But, this Fines Arts thing is a part of my dream and a step to go to Japan. And this Japan dream is my number one motivating force in world of professionals. I was ready to leave Manila Doctors. I decided to leave HR, but fortunately (I think it’s fate) The QM had one of its staff resigned unexpectedly, which initiated a possibility of placement for me. Which eventually I got in. Looking back, I still long for the fun that I had experienced as a recruitment specialist. But I also had fun as a QM Staff. I met a lot of people, particularly doctors. And the best part, despite the never-ending feud of the current and former QM Head, and the countless criticism and hindrances, we got the ISO certificate, simply put, the project was successful. And of course, as I have mentioned, I took a second course, Fine Arts. Going to school again wasn’t so easy, managing my time was really a challenge. And the sad part about it is that I had to sacrifice going home to the province and seeing my family. I also got isolated from my friends. But definitely I learned something and is still learning. Right now, I still couldn’t call myself a real artist, but with perseverance, I can be, if not good, a professional.

So much about my career moves, talk about family. A lot of members joined the Heavens, mostly the oldies. My grandmother passed away, just a few days after Pope John Paul II. It was one of the saddest event, but at the same time, we, the Alvarez clan were also happy that her sufferings have come to an end and she finally joined her most beloved, our Grandfather, and of course, God. Also, Cha-ibang, my grandma’s auntie and my cousin’s so-called mother in-law. I didn’t get to attend the internment of these old ladies because of my very busy schedule, but from the bottom of my heart, I prayed for their peaceful journey to the eternal life. If there are sad news, there are also good. This year, my dear cousin Jona got married. And next year, a new and lucky member of the Alvarez clan will be born. She’s 4 months pregnant now.

Now let’s get personal. Starting with my favorite hobby, anime, this is the year that I least watched new anime series/movies, again, all debited to my busy schedule. But, I made sure I attended major anime events and if possible, I join the Cosplay. This year, I cosplayed 3 different characters. Anime Explosion 2005 last February, I wore the Soujiro Seta costume for the 2nd time. 4th Toycon last June, I was Seguchi Tohma. I even had my hair blonde, which became very sensational both in school and office. I think it was the start of my very “pasaway” days. Though it only lasted for barely 2 weeks, I made sure I got a lot of souvenirs. I took as much pic as possible. And of course, the recent Hanep Hataw Hero con, I wore the ready-made Sasuke Uchiha costume, though it was still incomplete. I still have one more character to cosplay for this year, but I changed plans because of my unstoppable increase in weight. I still plan to cosplay for the next event and hopefully, I’d lessen my weight by that time. I’m sure this year was also remarkable for Chris and Aish, for last UP-AME event last November, they won 3rd place in the cosplay competition. They cosplayed the Loveless couple Ritsuka and Soubi. This year, I also got hooked with books. It originated when I was looking for a birthday gift for a very special person last June, but as I browsed through various bookstores, I found some titles interesting, and it was the start of my book hunting habits. Right now, I’m fascinated with the novels of Laura Joh Rowland, in fact, I’m currently reading her first book “Shinju” while I am happy to receive her latest novel “Perfume in the Sleeve” in our recent Christmas party. Videos, I didn’t acquire much, but I’m satisfied that I was able to have and watch Full Metal Alchemist, Tsubasa Chronicles, Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children, and the Otaku No Video. Toys, I’m glad that slowly, I’m completinng my toys wishlist. All thanks to this Christmas Sale, some RK figures have slashed prices by 50%. Though I never got to see those first ever Kenshin figures, I’m still crossing fingers that I’d still find one in the future. And of course, I finally got a laptop.

There are still so many things that happened that I lost count of them already... Ans some things are better kept secret, so i guess this would be all.

Right now, it’s 1:08 AM in my PC. Which means it’s already 2006. I don’t know what awaits me. But I hope that everything would be alright, for me, my family, friends…. And for YOU… HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Haggard...

Thankfully, my report in History of Arts is over…. Surprisingly my professor appraised me for my report considering I did it on the last minute, I’m not really prepared… well, the advantage of having attended the Trainer’s Training last April hehehe… ah don’t remind me of April… it’s the loneliest month for me for this year… anyways, this past 4 days, I slept for less than 4 hours a day. Work/school/anime/gimmick eats my resting time *sigh* and on top of that, I miss my folks at home… and my anime collection…

Last friday The QM office finally had it’s first TBA (Team Building Activity)! We went to Music 21, Malate Branch. It was really fun. I got to sing some Japanese songs hehehe. I also sang non-Jap songs… how they hated how I sing hehehe I hear boos all over the room. Okay, I admit I’m a lousy singer! What surprised me was my sister came accompanied by a surgeon, former resident of MDH… arghhhh, they were invited by Dr. Gene Chan… I was so deprived of my vices! Of course I can’t show my sister hehehe… I drank 2 bottles of vodka though and I kinda regret it because when I woke up the next day, I’m scratching all over my back! Grrrr! It’s that damn allergy again! I should restrain myself from drinking alcohol… but these events happen once in a blue moon so I guess it’s just okay. Besides, vodka really suits my taste among any other alcohol. Hey, update update! I just got my DVD copy of “Howl’s Moving Castle”! Waaiii! Ureshii! Though I don’t have time to watch it for now. Well, I swear when I’m done submitting my urgent plates, I lent it to my, ahem, “sensei” in Freehand Drawing and he liked it! Weee, if a non-anime fan liked it, it must be really good! Can’t wait to watch it! Hey, I just learned that Hayao Miyazaki-sama received a Golden Lion awrd by Venice Film Fest… I haven’t read the details but I’m sooo proud of him! He really is a tensai! Way to go!

I'M GEARED!

I finally got a Naruto headgear! I redeemed it from Quantum SM Manila, for 300 tickets! Yeah, I am now a… uhm… genin hehehe… honestly, I know so little of Naruto. I’ve only seen the first 7 episodes and read the pilot manga *sigh* I know this series is really hot among anime fans and I liked it but I just don’t have the time to watch it. Anyways, the headgear is really cool. I wear it in the office every night ever since I got it and my boss and colleagues here really find me weird… well they should get used with me doing weird stuff like this hehehe.

I feel sad, I miss Killua-chan sooooo much! All this time it’s still you... if you only knew what i'm going through...

Anyways, on a happier side, I’m gong to the L`arc~en~ciel Phis. Fans club launching this Sunday and I’m excited to see my friends--Aish and Chris again. I miss them so much! It's been a while that we haven't hang out together.Well I shouldn’t get too excited, I have to constantly remind myself that I have too many requirements in school to complete! Anyway, I’ll make sure I’ll complete them all! Gambarimasu!

Okay, okay i know i GAINED weight... don't remind me... it gets more depressing =`(... but that won't be for long because I had finally decided a character to cosplay... so now i'm motivated to control my apetite! Yay! This cosplay plan should push through or I'll be force to treat Yoji to Teriyaki Boi and order that "limited edition" Kobe beef >.<

Today is my eldest brother's birthday -- Richard! Happy birthday bro! *muah*

till next time, ja ne! (",x)

in the rain

It’s has been rainy for almost a week now… I’m inspired or rather sentimental during these moments. Rain reminds me of so many things. I had a lot of good memories with the rain that I’d rather not tell for I might get too emotional. But during these rainy days… I miss Soujiro! Yes! My Archetype in the anime/mangalandia hehehe. Anyway, it’s a common knowledge that Kenshin is my ultimate favorite character, but Soujiro was actually my first love in RK. I got hooked to RK because of Soujiro. And his persona reflects so much of me! Anyway, I’m at work and I’m really feeling tired. I got home 3:30 am already and I woke up at 8am, so I came late (again) in the office. We finished the band performances, I drank 1½ bottle of Vodka… (*-*)

I ran out of basic supplies so I had to go to supermarket after my work *sigh* I want to go home and sleep sleep sleep!

Anyways, just want to share something i wrote for Soujiro (and me).... the first line is owned by Nobuhiro Watsuki ^-^x

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Fake Smile

In the rain I smiled, but I was really crying
In the crowd I laughed, but I was really hurting
In the night I’m warm, but I was really chilling
In the light I see, but I was really seeking
In the deal I gained, but I was really loosing
In the game I won, but I was only cheating
In the sky I fly, but I’m actually falling
In the work I’m at ease, but I’m always cramming
In my world you are real, but I’m only dreaming
In the battle I survived, but how I wish I’d be dying